Its my first sleep deprived night in a long time, and I have to be honest, had it not been for the mosquitos I wouldn’t of been alerted to the many things that are buzzing around in my head tonight…. Fucking things, I actually killed 5 inside the bed mossy net in a few minutes, how the hell did they get in? Aside from the fact I was bouncing around my husband like an old retired ninja, boss man apprehensively holding his jewels through fear I was likely to stumble… anyhow, so here I sit, my favourite Arctic Monkeys song springs to mind as I peer at the clock… I’m going back to 505, if its a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive, in my imagination…..
So here we all are, many people are likely wondering how I came to this point of doubt, the burden I must reveal is a bit much, one lifetime ago I believed that everything we do, taxes we pay, legality and formality is all for the good of mankind to then, wake up and realise we are all living in a lie, I must admit initially it took a while, and many sleepless nights to get my head around, tonight is not one of those, I must admit, tonight is a combination of mosquito hell and I think I may of accidentally eaten gluten at that SenTonkin restaurant that Boss man treated me to tonight…. Either way, I am ok within myself, I don’t spend hours, days or even minutes pondering the plight of mankind, rather I choose to remain very present in my haven and attuned to my current needs and desires, which consist of lots of self love.
Those who have known me through my years will either be surprised at my state of spiritual awakening as they likely worked with ‘the ice lady’…. Or will be quite relieved that I have at least come full circle. You see, I knew from a very young age that I was a special kinda special, I could see things that hadn’t yet revealed themselves to others, I could feel things that took others years to realise, I am not the smartest or the most read person that anyone could meet, I have always paid attention to that around me and I have always, through the years and the evolution of me spoken loud and proud of my thoughts and feelings, often landing me in trouble but with all risk there is a reward and so here I am today, finally putting my Curious Cow dot com into good use….
So welcome one and all, as the days progress I will be adding to my blog, this first entry is a method to which my web martyr and mentor Mr Love will use as a training tool, so I believe I have hit the deadline…. ‘in my imagination, you’re waitin’ lyin’ on your side…..’
Sat Nam
